My real name is Kenneth Schonmeier. I use the name Kenneth J. Ester because I would never want to make people have to try and remember the name Schonmeier.
I wish I could write a great story here, telling you about a life full of adventure and humorous situations. I wish I could tell you about the many amazing friends I have made and how I have loved and have been loved by so many. If I was a character in a book, I might be able to do just that. Unfortunately my life is nothing to be proud of. I was a bit of a misfit as a child, always keeping more to myself. As adulthood descended upon me, I struggled to accept it. As a Christian in my early years, I failed miserably. I failed my family, the best friends a guy could ever ask for, and worst of all, I failed God. For thirty years I lived in a world of sin. Embarrassing sins like porn and worse. I tried to change my life and get right and almost succeeded when I got married. I only continued to fail. I failed to give my wife any level of financial security and I failed to be a very good step-father to her kids. In my life I failed in my career, I failed as an artist, and I failed as an author. I created a website about spiders and failed with that too. To put it embarrassingly blunt, I failed in absolutely everything in my life and I tried to hide my miserable failure of a life by laughing as much as possible.
I had one thing going for me that I just didn't see however. I failed a God who would never fail me!
At the end of 2017, God began to draw me back to Him. Early in 2018 God opened my eyes to how real He is and changed me. For the first time in my adult life, I didn't hate myself anymore. I stopped hating life and I felt a sense of joy and contentedness inside my heart that I never felt before. I certainly didn't deserve it, but God gave me His love and filled me with a desire to serve Him. I could never fix some of the things I did when I was young, but now I live for one reason. To serve God to the very best of my talents. I consider myself a fair writer and I believe my imagination has no limits, but I could never put to words how great God is! I wish I could have written a better story for you to read about who I am. I apologize for that, I really do, but I am so proud of the fact that I could at least give it a good ending. For there is no greater ending than one filled with the unconditional love of God!